when ben was born, i felt a lot of things. i felt thrilled and thankful. elated and nervous. tired and overwhelmed. but mostly i was just in love with him. in love with him and, well... unprepared.
i guess that's the way it is with a first baby. no matter how much you read or hear about being a mom - it's just not the same as when the hospital sends you home with the smallest, bestest bundle you could imagine. (and no owner's manual)
we were very lucky because the mister and i really went at it as a team. and we had lots of help and support from our family. and gram was, after all, our next door neighbor...
but still.
he was so small and so big @ the same time. i SO wanted to do a good job - be the best mom i could be.
who would have thought i would still have the same feeling fourteen years later? the teenage landscape is new. we will blaze the trail together, i guess. i still SO want to do a good job. SO want to be the best mom i can be.
one thing hasn't changed. i'm still mostly just in love with him. in love with him and, well... unprepared.
14 here we come are!
**** AND... happy birthday to you, brad. we think you are terrific and wish you a very happy year!!!
birthday boy and his beautiful family, november 09
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